Mackenzie. 20. NJ/CT.
I miss when I used to have rough never ending nights of homework and studying but when I was finally done and mentally and physically drained I would crawl into bed with my boyfriend already there waiting to shnug up
I am a very dependent person, but lately I’ve just been having such a strong want for isolation and self dependence. I’ve always loved/needed isolation from everyone, but recently I really have been wishing I could just have a space all to myself that nobody else could touch or share. Where my personal belongings remain my personal belongings. I want to be responsible for making all my food for myself again. I want to be able to watch TV when I want to, listen to music I actually want to hear whenever I want, I want silence, I want to be able to sleep when I want and not have to worry about being woken up by someone else. I want to be able to have entire days where nobody knows or asks where I am and what I’m doing. I don’t want to have to worry about the inconsiderateness of others affecting me anymore. I just want to have to rely on and worry about me, myself, and I.
Nice community of UConn tumblr, please someone help me get men’s gampel and XL season tickets PLEASE 🙏
I’ve been complimented a few times today, which is rare considering most of my days I am an unshowered, sweatpant/sweatshirt wearing, hot mess. But these random girls complimenting me made me realize that 1. I should start randomly complimenting others all the time because it seriously makes someone’s day and 2. I need to take more time in the morning to pull my shit together and present myself in a way I am proud of.
Today has also been fantastic because I finally grew a backbone and I quit a volunteer research lab position that made me miserable, was teaching me nothing, was sucking up all my time, was offering me zero benefits, and made me feel like a useless idiot. I need to make it a priority to cut anything out of my life that is not making me happy because my time in college is way too short to be wasting precious time doing something I hate surrounded by people who think I am dumb and incompetent.
DO WHAT MAKES YOU HAPPY AND DROP THE SHIT THAT DOESN’T
I’m all good, thanks!